Today was one of those days where I felt all hope was gone. In the morning and throughout the day, things werent going the way I wanted them to and at those moments I really felt hopeless. But I now realize the grace and love that my lord and Jesus Christ has for me. Today was my church’s 14th anniversary and we started service at 3pm. Now, I don’t have a permit or my license let alone a car so I take the train to church and this lady who normally picks me up from the station was running late; so I ended up waiting close to 30minutes at the train station for her and I missed praise and worship, which I never like to do. While all of this was happening, I was kind of questioning my faith in God because things were going wrong the entire week. When I got to church, after about 15 minutes, the choir sang a special number which was William McDowell’s “I Wont Go Back.” I never heard this song and I wasn’t in the mood to engage in a worship session so I was just staring at them. But as soon as they started singing the words struck a serious chord in my heart. These lyrics particularly
“I’ve been changed:
I’ve found joy
And I began tearing because I completely negated where God had taken me from and I forgot that doubting God’s plan for my life made HIM angry with us. As if that weren’t enough, these lyrics came up:
“I won’t go back, I can’t go back, to the way it used to be
Before your presence came and changed me”
:Sigh: Feeling and experiencing a minuet encounter of God’s experience will leave you wanting more. I had my first genuine experience with the Lord when I became re-born again in 2010. So, this song reminded me of the olden days and made me wanting to GO HARDER AND DEEPER IN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.
It’s amazing that GOD ALWAYS knows how to comfort and encourage HIS own.
This song made me realize (once again) that the circumstances around me are irrelevant to my worship and adulation of the MOST HIGH GOD. Lord, I’m Sorry. I make this declaration today that I wont go back, I cant go back, to the way it used to be Before your presence came and changed me!!
HOW PATIENT, MERCIFUL, LOVING, GRACIOUS IS MY GOD!
Enjoy this Worship Song: